there are days when i feel i can map out my future and know exactly where my life is heading, then i remember my husband. he doesn't want children. i do. this difference has caused many silent nights, divided sleeps, and painful tears. this was a topic we discussed in premarital counseling, as all good Christian couples do, but at the time he was for having a family. i pray every day to my God that he will change his mind, that his heart would be opened up to the thought of being a father, that he would yearn to have a family with me. he is content with our family of two dogs. i am not. i want babies, i want children, i want someone to take care of me when i get older. i want to feel that love that only a parent a child share, the feeling of never being able to love someone more. there are so many idiots in this world with children WHY can't i be a mother. i'm well educated, responsible, aware of the time, sacrifice, and struggle involved and i still want the job. if only my husband did ...

pray for me. pray for my husband. please ...